Wednesday, 2 August 2017

Nonetheless vagabond

we couldnot find a place to live and we were six days removed from  being homeless for the last month of july,we were led to believe that finding a place to live in cyprus would be easy but it was  for lack of word to describe it,terribly hard if you are finding rent for few days,luckily we got one,thanks to Dr.Singay lhendrup,not until then did he help us to find one room to rest for another 8 days would be so hot to get out and search for the room under scorching heat of 43 degree celcius,no breeze---hot,so hot that you can not sleep---hot
terribly hot that you need to peel the fabric of clothes off your salty-drenched and sticky body,almost half cooked barbeque at the end of the day,its seriously hot as sun but i am not sure that does it justice

But with the time passes by,things began to settle down
i can honestly say i have never felt more comfortable with myself before but Cyprus has gave a way  to be more free and relax of who i am,the happiness is palpable here,living on my own,learning more about myself,discovering whats its like to stand on my own,i can feel myself blossoming and thats the most satisfying part of being here..
 i have never failed to make great friendships,i can say that unexpected friendships is the best,and for few i am certain will be for a life,some will be leaving and moving on with their lives but at one time get-go life i shouldnot forget that life is a revolving door,people will always come and go,feelings would change after every secs or hours but i will cherish the limited time i have with the people i am with now,keeping in mind that everyone has their own way to follow,at some point i have to accept the facts that some people in my life will be marathoners and sprinters
this seems to be only the great reel of my experience of friendship thing so far,without counting an ample of experiences and knowledge learned under professionalised professors,its gone nothing like how i expected it would,since its only been nine months eight days and as the days come to a close to be back home,it feels more like a beginning than an end

An idea of going back home leaving the joyful experiences of erasmus life would be real heal hard,and at the moment go i would definitely struggle to accept the facts but at one time i think i will and would miss the life i have spent here for the last nine months 12 days here in cyprus.i think there will be pull to return to this place some years old from the day of now.

It was indeed their warmth,their helpful hands,which crept into my being like theft,snatched my heart forever,well,i am very sure,i think i left the whole damn thing here cux there was saying that wherever you travel,provided you have done it right,you leave a part of heart there,


Monday, 10 July 2017

Seems to be Forever Goodbye

“It is always important to know when something has reached its end. Closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesn’t matter what we call it; what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over.”                                                                          ~~~Paulo Coelho

i got some secrets forgot to share you  yet the last episodes are over,i choose forgetting.
when i had nothing more to lose,i loose you.
when i was supposed to be there to listen the following words in your mind,i heard half the sentences,
when i expected to hear the word i was suppose to be heard,you ceased from sharing it 
yet i understood that i was free to choose to be deaf.
 The expectations i had from you though all attired with pain and disappointments in me,the blows that hurt me,
the wrecked dreams and the stillborn love and hopes.

Thank you so much for the illusion that has set something nothingness at the end.
The misfortunes of the past,has no weight on my heart,
i will be capable of loving albeit i am loved in return,of giving,
even when i have nothingness which works well,
in the midst of adversities,
regardless of being completely alone and abandoned,
while i weep,believe me even when no one believes me
and yes its never too late to start over.



Monday, 26 June 2017

Ignorance:Social networks

What i observed so far in me!!!
It was right after dinner,i was so much engaged with phone,so much busy,i didn't bother to spare a minute to chat face to face,much busy to check instagram feeds,very much busy with smart phone,i didnt know why i was so busy,when i realised what i was doing,the phone wasnt used for texting,neither a call to anyone nor chat with anyone,but i was so much engrossed to check on what orher people were doing in their social media which actually a waste of million seconds of life.

In this digital age,i felt that everyone has a huge urge to keep up with other people or need to feel flattered through the affirmation of the virtual likes and compliments from other people,no more the age with toothy grin chit chat to be expected at this generation.

Saturday, 17 June 2017

adversities before travelling


One’s meat is another man’s poison, what works for someone might not work for you and the worst thing is comparing one’s journey to someone’s else journey through the wild world of different windows, it’s totally different, different lens and way of perceiving the things differs. Just focus on you and do it as it is supposed to be.That’s how i was inspired to travel some European countries which were placed in my bucketlist luckily.
It was  actually planned for three weeks and yet the planning part beforehand was kinda sting in the tail experiences for me. wakeful night plan coincided with term examinations albeit tensions during exam time, Famished stomach starved for the food while walking on scorching sun, yearning for the schegen visa,you would never believe how the temperature was in Cyprus at that time, missed buses, missed so many classes yet the keen to travel wasn;t diminished fortunately besides so many problems and complexities during the process


Thursday, 15 June 2017

Grass is always greener on the other side

we always find others life is perfect and happy as full moon on the wide large serene blue sky, but it is only the way how we make it or choose see it,as said, the grass is always greener on other side yet we failed to notice the greenest on our side, the only thing is we never bother to water grass on our side, because the grass is greenest only when it is being watered. Wayfaring in the direction that our passion wants to go seals us with meaning but trying to Walk on others direction contradicts the keen interest one has for ,cuz it never going to match our fashion of life in a way it has to be though it seems to be perfect on their way, The most of the time our purposes of harmony, support, involvement, and admiration for Life take us unerringly towards people, Life, health, fulfillment instead of satisfaction, and joy instead of happiness,that’s why we always see happiness on other shore
we only have our own.  But that is the pivotal spot.  If we can accept reality for what it is, we have the chance to develop it, to improve it, and to grow it. 

A lot of elements in it are perfect, but life is also real, and by no means tranquil. Daily challenges and trials of the body and mind creep into our life just like in any other. But we must make the most out of our life, who knows if we'll be here again. When sadness and hardship come our way at least we should not forget to acknowledge it, taking a little time to process it, try to master it but should not facade it, hide it, or ignore it. Life is about spending time with the people we love, and being sound healthy, living wisely.

Being an origin from Buddhist country, we believe in karma, create our own destiny, therefor I am grateful for the life I lead, and in my eyes the people in it make it perfect. Keeping the health and harmony takes hard work and I would love to use this platform to share ideas, motivation, and smiles. moments of my life,kinda diary from the heart turned into words just for the sake of recording every kind of things I am generally passionate about. Its neither a post to demean every one, its solely about my  moments of life,not real facts yet you can use it just for the sake of the time passing, it would neither help you nor motivate you but its a writing  for the sake of my own recreational being.

Wednesday, 14 June 2017

kindness is free

been exactly a month seldomly did i blogpost.
its just a piece of writing today which provoke on something i should write here out of no where,felt like i should jot it here to keep the spirit of blog alive.

Live your life your way your style not copied version of someone else.
It doesn't count what kind of life we lived but counts the most in how we lived the life. This human form of life is much prized and highly gifted we own as an expensive gift ever .Everyone says that we live once and life is to enjoy this remarkable expensive gift, some says that its just to live it while others claim for the endeavoring one’s happiness. The view of life differs from one head  to another depending on the way we perceive the things we are surrounded with and the way we are brought up with.
For me, I count my way of life on helping others whole-heartedly and not for the sake of helping, help is free, that's why I yearn to live on kindness. One of the great masters Dalai Lama clearly mentioned that :"Our main motive in life is to help others and if you can't help them , at least don't harm them."
In one way or another human life is very much daintily beautiful yet we are never satisfied with what we are, we harm others for our needs and wants, Albeit we are wise,intelligent and think great we do not feel much, deviating ourselves from the main single-mindedness of  life.

Anyway,this all i have got to say for today
let me take a minute moment of yours, to acknowledge you for being my BLOG readers one day,one night,one morning, one afternoon,one minute or one second  albeit its for sure there aint any moment to meet face to face in this life,I assume that we are meeting at all times in this blog if I am not mistaken, this way it makes  me happy atleast. Thank you and kadrinchoe. Keep visiting. Take care and be mindful of every moment of life, every moment of life is attired in uncertainty, so live as if you were to die tomorrow, be good, do good ,feel good and hope good. OPTIIMISTISM every day. May Buddha bless you . My sycophantic prayers are, with you, today, tomorrow, always, for time without end. Warm-hearted regards from me. Proceeds every moment with care



Wednesday, 31 May 2017

Twisted life:Escapades from the mundane sphere


It was a  sunny day and the weather was very cool for something i can say for us to eat in one of the restaurants.its been long since we last met at college,decades perhaps.we been working for the different organisations and have been kept busy with our way of life schedules and work life though we are in the same country.

we went on and on conversing on our past memories.

i told her,"i was so lost and felt like running on barefoot on the beach side.i feel so meaningless and hopeless regards to this life,i have been working for the last 3 years and feels like i haven't done anything so worth and meaningful"

" 'huh',why so?
seems some problem with your job life?i didn't get you by the way",she said


i told,"My life has always had a spiritual twist to it ever since I can remember. My family was not religious at all and yet I was drawn to anything mystical. I guess the search started from then on to find answers to questions that my parents just couldn't answer. I remember from around age six, often waking up in the middle of the night wondering about life and the way that everything changes, nothing stays the same.That one day everyone including me would die, sometimes I would lie there thinking it was all just a dream anyway. Other times I wondered if I was the dreamer or the dream or in somebody else's dream. I couldn't really talk to my family about these things as they already thought I was a bit weird. I just knew that life was more than we could see. It was at this age that I decided I wanted to be a missionary as I had this overwhelming urge to help people who were suffering"


she in her giggled tone,"why are you so lost? 
seems like you are gonna lead buddha's life,if there were so many heads like yours the world would definitely have so many buddha's..LOL."
common my lady,we are born to enjoy,keep aside your funny thoughts,don't ponder and wonder,its half the life yet to come, its real fact that we are gonna die one fine day.you should have abandon this life rather lead otherway round life, how did you come so far into job life?

"In the meantime samsara beckoned with lots of karmic entanglements and desires and I was hurtled into this job life.Samsara beckoned strongly and pulled me back into its desire ridden river of misery.
 A seed was planted, however, that ripened years later with a passing comment from my relatives,you should enter job life and help your siblings,parent",i said.

she said,Oh my goodness,"as if spiritual has every answers for your doubts?funny thing ever heard from you,think wise,its not always a way to practice being in monastic life,One can practice dharma being lay life,you need not have shave your head and don a red robe".

"yes,i am funny and weird since young days,if dharma could be practiced as a lay life,why did buddha abandon his royal and luxurious life who at that time was having comfortable life,moreover he  was a prince yet he thought it wasn't the way to achieve the true realisation,"

"yeah dear,but you are not buddha, if everyone wants to be in your shoe,definitely the world would be in poverty,there won't be anyone to offer the one who practices dharma,what do you think?".

i said,"i am neither buddha nor copying his way,just a bit of same feelings that keeps arising and makes me feel incomplete,but do you have same feelings like mine?do you have any interest?rather than comparing to the huge population,ask to yourself,do you have any notion of life after death>if you  don't have such belief system,its funny to compare a small stuffs to a big thing"


In her agony tone said,"better and try to think well,you are the eldest among your families,where everyone expects you to be very successful. even your dad,he has been looking upon you that you would look after your siblings and family matters,don't you have any empathy towards your family?,especially your dad,who has been with you since the day you were born,has been with you for every obstacles you have had,he has been supporting you and your dreams.
so far who you are and what you have been ,are all cuxs of your dad and you should be very thankful to him perhaps,stop having such a childish and selfish thoughts of leading spiritual.we are half pass 25 years.life is uncertain but at the same time,at the back of our mind,no matter,how spiritual mind we may posses,we still think we would live another day,don't you think?"


"Am i asking too much?
suppose,you want something and if that something doesn't come to your desired place,would you feel complete?i am not selfish actually.so far, i was here,hadn't i thought of my family matters i would have already abandon the life since the day there was green signal but i have awaited till here,wanted to relinquish this feelings of 50.50 life style,yet the ddream keeps me firmer day by day,rather it keeps me alive.
trying to fit into the circle of society,hoping for good things to happen everytime,visualising evrytime good things would happen but when good things doesn't hapen the way we visualise,it is not easy,fortunes come and goes,the whole business that has been set up for life time keeps twindling,high salary job and bank full of money,we marry with the one we love and bore a child from the loved one,we think marriage,children,land as security at the end of the retirement life yet at the end of the day,we still die empty hand,we have no assurance that our own blood children would treat us well the way we treated them when they were young and innocent.
heard so many stories of family problems,children being disobeyed to their parents makes me feel insane"

Her response was like rushing river downwards the valley,"seriously i feel its your one-sided story,go on  and live a reality,experience it,until and unless one live the reality and we will get to know the real tastes of human life,you would never know enjoyable it is and make a let go life,find your soul mate," 

i told,"as if my life is millennium,we can not learn everything from our own experience,life is short."

she nodded,emae,life is short and keep it to yourself.....

By the time,i realised that i had to go home early.






Nonetheless vagabond

we couldnot find a place to live and we were six days removed from  being homeless for the last month of july,we were led to believe that f...